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Permission.
I don’t need it. Because I don’t need you. But I want it. From you. The way I am made from you. But not made of you. I am made of something fresh, something new. From past bulbs I bloom. The way I surrendered my last drop of water. like a cactus in the desert, … Continue reading
Growing Pains
Like a cramp in the middle of the night that keeps me awake, I always half expect it. That looming pain that disrupts every part of peace when I least expect it. That’s what I thought it was like. Waiting for it to come, waiting for it to end. Waiting for the moment I stopped … Continue reading
These Small Hands
On the nights I’ve made you question my love; know that I’ve questioned my ability. I’ve questioned my capacity to hold you in these small hands. Like a child begging before you, I ask your forgivness, your patience, and your kindness. To that of which I still do not know of myself. I have no … Continue reading
Dancing with you
I never thought I’d dance again, I never thought my legs would move to the beat of my heart. But here you are, upfront, uncanny and wise. I am guided by movement unknown. Somehow my heart is yours for the taking. Ive only known it to be broken, yet somehow I feel so whole. So … Continue reading
Ouroboros in a glass case
The isolation is cold ;bringing bouts of familiarity and nostalgia. The fear subsides, for I am comforted by a past that holds a peice off me. I am embodied by my history. Forgive me for begging, but answer me honestly. What are the expectations? To which or whom am I devoted? I’ve no legs, yet … Continue reading
Hungry
She’s never loved anything as much as she loves you. shes never been more alone than without your company. shes never been so hungry. she only eats to stay alive; if you can call it that. Continue reading
Open waters
You said I was the one that gave you the life jacket you said I was the one that gave you goggles but you were the one that helped me see underwater you were the one that kept me a float ill swim with you into the dark waters into the unknown. let my heart … Continue reading
Reflection.
How can I look at you, and hate me. How can I look at you and think of all the things I should be. How can I look at you with such disgust. How can I look at you and not feel like you’re enough. How can I look at you and not realize … Continue reading
Letters of Letting Go. #1
To the man whom I loved who wore all black, The piece of you I held on to for so long, I want you to have it back. Like the ring that once sat on my finger, and the nights i’ll never forget, It was beautiful, It was real, not a moment i’ll regret. I … Continue reading